LAST TIME.

Last time when I was young, I used to be the leader of my neighbourhood. I still remember I had Timothy, Valerie, Felicia, Nigel, Santos, Belven, Esther, my maid, Esther's maid, Annicia and not forgetting my brother and sister. We always do stupid things together- play gameboy together, play badminton together, eat together, play in the rain together, swimming together and many many things together. Now that we have all grown up, we hardly talk now. I kind of missed those times when our days was so carefree without anything to worry about. I suddenly remember the first time we tried to organise birthday party for Annicia despite her working! It was a bit awkward because we managed to do so with the help of Aunty Julie (the mama-shop aunty). How much things have changed huh? The playground we use to play in is now being renovated into some fitness corner for the elderly. Nonetheless, although we do not really talk, but when we do come together, we really still have the 'feel' of those time, just like today! I went to watch movie with Annicia and Belven.

Yup! Our favorite hang out place! :)

ANNICIA!

THE BILL .__.

WE ALL HAD SNAPPLE!

CAN YOU BELIEVE THIS?!

CURRY RICE.

THIS IS ACTUALLY MAYONNAISE -.-

TAKOYAKI!

ME. BELVEN.

EBI SHRIMPS.

WE ALSO WENT TO WATCH THIS MEANS WAR!
VERY NICE AND FUNNY MOVIE.

Finally, we headed to Belven's house and there was Junior!!

SPOT THE JUNIOR CONTEST!

HE IS DAMN CUTE!! :)))

Had a great time with them!

Friends always <3

KNOWING MYSELF.

I am finally back from the 3D2N leadership camp: CREATE! This camp was quite life changing for me because I learnt a lot of things from- communications skills, marketing skills and management skills. Not forgetting the many friends I from with other IGs (Salsa, Wushu and Magic especially) under TRCC. It is also through this camp that I am found motivation to want to lead GEnRe again.

'It is not where you go, it is who you go with.' Does that sound familiar? For this camp, I have got Hidayat who is my President, Irene who is the Vice-President and finally XingMing the Logistics. Sigh, talk about trying to blend, I thought GEnRe failed badly- maybe because none of us wanted to go in the first place. But, honestly speaking, I also didn't want to go at first too; untill I realized so much can be done for my IG. Maybe because I am more proactive and willing to socialise?

With that aside, Zaini is truly inspiring and he really makes sense of what he says, now I really respect him. Just as he have said: 'The group is only as strong as the weakest person.' This really did knock some sense to me because I realised how different I am from the rest of the committee member. It makes me feel so odd-one-out. Honestly speaking, if I am the problem then I will vote myself out because I see no point in the effort of one compared to the effort of many. Because 'the quality of success often depends on how well the relationship of the team is'. With all this in mind, I found motivation to change too, but at the same time, I am not sure if the rest got that 'motivation' to change. Oh well...

I was told by Irene that I tend to over-run Hidayat's position to lead. So I am now more caution of what I am doing so as to make sure I do 'take-over' his role. But on the other hand, if I do not do anything, nothing moves- no discussion, no meeting and everything will still be the same- we all do individual work, which is no point! 'To listen to others have to say, you first have to listen to what they did not say.' I am saying so many things, but how much of it what inside of them?

To make things worst, I got angry with Irene over small matters; which I thought was childish of me. I send her an SMS to apologize after knowing that her tweets are most likely to be directly towards me. If that is what is actually felt, maybe I am really the problem.

Anyways, I still did enjoy my camp!!! :) Thank God for the chance to meet so many people; who is fun and interesting. More importantly, we all share this passion for art- regardless of what IG we are in.

It always feel good to know that there is more people you can depend on sometimes...

I was really glad to know that GEnRe is not 'alone', with that in mind, will it be 'alone' still in the end?

UN-MENTIONED

Ever felt like that there is so much you want to do but at the same time, so little things you can accomplish due to many various reasons? The reasons may vary from circumstances, chances, time or even tiredness? Well, this is how exactly I am feeling right now; I want to do so many things but somehow things just do not end up how I imagined them to be. Probably because it is the holidays, that’s why I am feeling this way (having too many things on the ‘to-do-list’). This might just be one of those many excuses I use to comfort myself.

Fact is- I do feel sad, angry and maybe slight disappointment.

One the reasons might be because TianWen left KRR! I have no idea why I felt this sadness within myself when I know he is leaving and going back to China. He was really an eye-sore to me when I first knew him because he was really fierce and he bullies me all the time! But, gradually, we got to know each other and he treated me better then. Although, with the help of Reiko’s birthday, we managed to help him spend his last night in Singapore at SPICE, I still felt this sadness within me. Great World City’s KRR also wrote a card to him expressing all the gratitude and wishes. He actually cried upon us giving him the card- I knew he didn’t want to go back too. But, he couldn’t help it too, because his extension of the work permit is rejected. There is so much I want to do, but yet circumstances weren’t on my side.

FIRST AND LAST NEO-PRINT
BRYAN. TIANWEN. REIKO. JOLLIBEE. CYNTHIA. IRENE. ME.

TianWen wanted to take this! Although nothing was said out loud, I knew that he wanted to keep this as a parting gift. I always belief that a picture is the best representation of your memories- it captures that one moment of your life which other people may interpret different, and yet, means another thing to you.

ME. TIANWEN.

''在新加坡快要四年的生活终于结束了，从以前爱发脾气的单纯变成现在有点成熟的大男孩，因为你门的存在改变了我的性格，很高兴认识你们，这辈子永远不会忘记你们，谢谢~有些话不知道用什么语言来表达我此时的心情—只是留恋，想起以前，想起现在，想起我们欢声笑语。我仿佛从来没有这么高兴过，虽然工作很累，但我已经把它当成了我前进路上的起点。相识是缘，说的一点都没有错。谢谢你们的宽容与支持，爱你们~~''

I will always remember you too, how annoying you used to be till how you are so good to me. All the best in everything you do. Hope we will meet again someday. 

Till then, DO NOT FORGET US! 

THE KRR FAMILY GWC.

GOD'S GRACE AND MERCY BE UPON YOU.

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Well, church was quite happening too.. Anyways, we just concluded our first event: ONE WAY YOUTH RACE! I thought it was fun and enjoyable despite the rain. Hope everyone enjoyed themselves. And big thank you to all that made time to help bond the teens, really appreciate it! More importantly, all glory back to God! :)

On a personal note, this is like the second event I helped planned other then the JOY carnival.

THE POSTER!

Yanling told me that I looked damn stressed-up. Ben told me to not be so stress. Pastor even better, he said that I always look stressed-up. I asked myself, am I stress? Probably because I am applying what I have learnt in RP? Well, I was running here and there to make sure everything goes as planned and as smooth as possible because I wanted the best possible outcome that will meet the objectives of this event. And I am glad, we did somewhat met the objectives.

TDY- ONE WAY!

Also, the prophecy by Pastor Sonny Ooi was the answer I am looking for, prayer answered. So now, with everything sorted out, I shall put my everything in it and let God do the rest- shall be prayerful again.

This week in church, I feel quite guilty. Because the preacher said God will never forgive if you are unable to forgive others. Then again, those words are so hard to say! And dear Clement managed to do it despite me not talking to him for so long after that 'fight'. Yes, although things are 'cleared', both of us are not as close as we use to be now. Promoting unity in Christ huh? Clement never fails to amaze me. Well, also there is Ike. He said sorry to me already, but why am I so petty last time?! Now, it is my turn to try and seek his forgiveness for not forgiving him that time. He humbled himself and said sorry to me; by right I should have forgive him. Come to think of it, it is almost one year already...feel ashamed of my ugly-prideful-self.

Saying sorry is not something easy, that is, if it is from the bottom of your heart. I come to realized the need to be humble because pride kills. It really does. Hopefully, everything will go on fine.

Although, things will never be the same again- just like how paper is crushed and can never be straight again.

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GEnRe is also having progress. We are practicing Medley for one of the composers and Pink Panther is one of the songs and Moon River too! Hope everything will turn out fine. Meanwhile, I am designing the poster!! My photo-shop skills have improved lots but still, it is all trial-an-error. If you know what I mean.

THE POSTER.

Well, PeiYing is also no longer our adviser. It has been changed to LiWen! Hopefully, we will be able to work with her. Hopefully, this concert will bring the impression of classical guitar to a whole new level. On that note, I also want to learn acoustic style!!! Shall do something about that.

I always feel better after blogging.

Shall make full use of this term break!!

Tired?! It means you are living life well!

''There will be plenty of time to sleep when you're dead, life is for the living, so wake up and enjoy every moment''

                                                                                                                                                                                             -Benjamin Franklin

Everything.

I am finally blogging again, after so long.

It is finally holidays...after the tiring and nerve-breaking papers I have to take for the different modules, not to the mention the difficulty I faced trying to revise each module. Thank God that the papers wasn't really that tough. Even so, I guess I am prepared to see my GPA drop, nonetheless. Because my daily grade de-proved.

Alright! Since it is holiday, might as well make the time more fruitful instead of thinking of my results?! My current life now is still somewhat the same, or maybe not? I am still working, still going back to school for guitar practice and finally, serving God in church.

In terms of work, one of my manager is finally going back to his hometown. Honestly speaking, I do not really know him well. Sometimes, he is good to me, sometimes, he is just plain nasty. That is my manager for you. I think a lot of people in my outlet is happy that he is finally leaving, since he is well-known for slacking. Either way, still I have to thank him for 'taking care' of me all this while. All the best to him! Other than that, it would be Reiko's birthday! I don't really know what she is planning- one moment chalet, the other moment supper. But what really gives my headache is her present! Come to think of it, how old is she?! Hmmm...Ohhh, something just cropped out of my mind, it is one of my colleague, TianWen. He suddenly has got this 360 degrees change in attitude towards me! I always believe there is a reason for every change- but this? I seriously have no idea what happen. I asked Irene, but she say he is always good to me. Well, maybe he changed his perception towards me? I don't know either.

In terms of GEnRe? Well, I am practicing but I guess not hard enough. I am still weak in side-reading those really high, if not really low notes! How annoying! The isn't much progress for RiverFlowsInYou; but I really hope to be able to play in a small group this time round. I feel so sad that CanonInD was rejected by Alex; because I really practice really really hard, and yet, he says it lacks emotions.Sigh. Try harder next time, Edward! I feel lousy too because I couldn't get the poster done and I forget to do Synopsis! Oh well...

Finally, in terms of church, a lot have changed. I am now a cell group leader; Marcus now is a worship leader? Uncle Randy have moved on; so did Jolene. Come to think of it, I used to have the thought of changing church too- I quarreled with so many people. Anyways, back to the topic on cell-group leader, I didn't really give a answer to Pastor, but unknowingly, I got myself involved with being in the leadership. Am I happy, am I sad? I really don't know- so what's holding me back from not wanting to be a leader? 

Well, I thought about it and realized that I am not confident. With regards to this, I have been thinking quite some time, and there is a lump of different reasons. Among the cell group leaders, I am odd-one out? Hey, I am a community kid, ya? And looking at how independent I am, I may rot anytime- all I need is some bad company and that's it! BOOM. Bottom-line is, I cannot even take care of myself, let alone taking care of others. Also, partly, it is my family- I am worried and scared for XYZ reasons. And this XYZ reasons, is enough to drain me physically, emotionally and mentally- however strong I am, it is only a matter of time I snap. All those uncertainties is holding me back. 'As a event manager, you must always think of the worst case scenario. What that is bad will happen!' says Mr Haris. Guess, I am putting it into practice huh? On top of that, what about myself? Am I healthy enough to lead people in the likeliness of God? Without trying, I already know the answer, which is no.

Reflecting on my pass few months, I realized how truly tired I am, even though I gave my self tonnes of silly excuses. Now, with holding a leadership position in church, I am responsible for each individual. I am no super-man ya? I am always taking care of people around me, so who take care of me? Biblically correct answer: God. Sometimes, I hate biblically correct answers, not that I have no faith in it, but my flesh is too weak to handle it. I need time to sort things out. Well, on the positive note, I have picked-up on my bible-reading; quiet-time and prayer. Oh well, thank God for His grace and mercy.

God, I need answers from You, not man.

My Valentines Day!

Just a short post...

Yesterday was V'Day. I did nothing much actually. I just studied and eat. Yeah, that's about it.

GONGCHA!

VALENTINES CAKE FROM HUI YI!! <3
SHE DAMN SWEET!!

DOUBLE CHEESE-BURGER WITH NUGGETS!! :)

MAC DIDN'T HAVE CURRY SAUCE.
SO THEY GAVE ME THIS! :)

MISS ONG'S V DAY GIFT.

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY! :)

A MILESTONE.

Yup, as the title suggests, I am going to pass one of the milestones in my life, which is completing my Year1 of my course in RP, being a committee member for GEnRe and also being a cell group leader in church with Debbie. See? How tremendous the change is? That's why I am marking as a milestone of my life because this is where I am going to change.

YEAR 1 SEM 2 CLASS. B-STATS TEACHER.

I can't believe Semester 2 ended so fast. It was just as though I just started Semester 2 yesterday! Well, this semester, my classmates are all quite different- in terms of personalities and character. But I really thank God there wasn't any major disputes. Hmmmm, and also for the bond we had over the past 15 weeks.

1) LUNCHING GIRLS

2) STEAM-BOATING MATES

3) ALL BOYS GROUP

4) UT SIT TOGETHER GROUP

5) VEGETARIAN GROUP

Well, I will miss them. But will good would it do for me to miss them?

I must continue my relationship with them by hanging out together as often as we can.

P.S. If you are reading my blog, MUST MUST MUST meet-up, ok? :)

Next...I attended a wedding to witness Kirby and Corinne tie the knot to live together as married couples. I thought the wedding will quite smooth and sweet! Not to mention the fact that Uncle Randy and Auntie Peggy smiling so brightly! Haha! Guess what am I doing in this happy occasion? I was in the car-park 'arranging' cars to their parking lots! Together with Isa, Samuel and ChinKiat, we parked them quite successfully. There was even this uncle was said we looked like 20 plus years old. Wahhh, I don't think I looked so old. LOL.

JOLENE- THE PRETTY GIRL

She is damn pretty right? But, she is not the bride! She is the bride's sister! Jolene is my sister-in-Christ. Hmmm, I have known her for about 5 years? I still remember there was Jonathan and HuaiBoon and ZhongRen, studying together and working hard for PSLE! Time really flies huh? Now she is going to TP! Will always be praying for you! :)

UNCLE RANDY'S LESSON! :)

SAMUEL. JOLENE. CHIN KIAT (MY BRO)

JOLENE. ME.
WAHHH, SHE DAMN TALL.

UNCLE RANDY. JOLENE.

JANICE. DIANE. ME. DEBBIE.

JOLENE. CORRINE. 

ZACK. JOLENE.

RUTH. DEBBIE. DIANE. JOLENE. JANICE

THE BRIDE CORRINNE & GROOM KIRBY.

All the best! :)
Ok, I do not really know them actually...

Alright! Next would be the most UP-TO-DATE one. FOOD!

I went to meet the girls for dinner at Old Changi Airport!

I think we went there because Davinna and HuiWen wanted to let her try out some nice food.

Sorry girls! I was late :( Make you guys wait for so long.

But at least my intuition was right- they started without me! HAHAHAHAHAHA.

I really thank God for them <3

CHICKEN WINGS!

THE MANGO BEAN-CURD PUDDING.

YAM 'POT PIE'.

IS THIS THING CALLED LA-LA?

SATAY! :)

SAMBAL STING-RAY! :)

ME. YUELEI (X4)

ME. THERESA.

DAVINNA. HUI WEN. THERESA. YUE LEI. JULIET.

DAVINNA. THERESA. JULIET. HUI WEN. YUE LEI. ME.

LUNCHING-MATES! <3

Well, most of them are going to Taiwan for SOT with Jimmy! I will be praying for them.

Especially after knowing how Theresa would be disappointed if they cannot go.

Sigh, that guy that is 'harassing' Theresa, I hope he is a fine guy that knows what is the limit..

Nahhh, shouldn't  think too much! :)

ALRIGHT, STUDY FOR THEM!

Right now, I am on study break. Gonna maintain my GPA! I have to do it! Jiayous! :)

All my friends out there who are studying, work hard too! :)

Yups, that's about all of what's happening. And guess what? Today is V' Day!

Most of the people would label it with Couple, Friends, Family and whatever that is left.

But, let's not forget that God is Love too! :)

HAPPY VALENTINES' DAY! :)

LOVE~

Life as a CG leader ain't going to be easy. I know. Thanks Marcus for begin there for me! Well, I know life have been tough for you too, but fear not, you have God with you! Hmmm, I will be praying for you too! Wow, this so ties in with PastorHo's sermon that two is better than one- we will look out for one another ya, bro! :)Well, those words from the youth camp still is in my mind 'Do not let the godliness in you fade away, strengthen it..' It is kind of scary and yet, at the same time, means so much to me.

Alright, I guess it means I need to live by faith not by sight!

Thank God for everything! <3