THANKS-GIVING DAY~

Thanks Giving Day was over a few days ago, I think?

Nonetheless, I would still want to make this post to thank God for everything even if it's over.

It has truly been an amazing journey in RP up till now.
All the people who make me who I am now.

Y1S1! ALL THE AWESOME PEOPLE!

Y1S2! ALL THE BIMBO(S).

Y2S1! "KAN"!

Y2S2! CURRENT CLASS

They have made-up part of my life in RP- a fun and meaningful one.

Yes, we might have parted ways and will not see each other, one thing is for sure..

We share the same memories in class- laughing, lunching, playing and going crazy at times.
I learnt that I should be too selfish and have everyone in my life.
So, just remember those good times and catch up when we can.
That's enough. 

GEnReans!

Yes, I may have lots of complains and everything.

But after all the thick and thins we went through as a club through the performances...

I kind of realized I would have regretted more if I didn't join this club.

ALL THE AWESOME PEOPLE I MET IN SOH! :)

TEAM ACE-SOME!
All the crazy people during CAMP RENAISSANCE!

ZLSCC!

Who says a church must be big in order to "function"?

Thank God for this church- all my ganma and ganpa who takes care of me.

Pastor who help me make my decisions.

TDY for the fellowship and accountability.

Love you guys! <3

To my special groups of friends!

~NOT BY ORDER~ 

ARIEL

My three semester friend!

Honestly, I never thought we would have come this far together for three semester!

Thanks for always buying breakfast for me and giving me advise when I need it.
Thanks for making feel easy to be with, going into heart-to-heart talks.

Love you!

TRACY

Thank her for being my listening ear always, listening to my complains and frustrations in my life.

Also, for motivating when I needed it.

Always looking out for me.

Love you too!

CHIA MENG

Thank this guy for always being half of an ass! HAHA!

Thanks him for always giving me a chance to counsel him.

Thank him for allow me to bully him!! :)

Thank him for making the effort to try to know me and get to tolerate my XYZ attitude on him.

I hope he knows I love him too, HAHAHAHA despite everything.

TERENCE

This guy is another side of the ass! HAHA. A team-mate of Chia Meng, to be exact.

Thank him for also tolerating my XYZ attitude.

Thank him for also letting me bully him!

Thank him for being so...open in his thoughts too, so transparent.
Thank him for taking care of me also! :)
Love this brother too!

IRENE

Haha, if she sees this, I am so going to be died :/
Nonetheless, Irene, thank you for still being there despite so many things that have happened.
Thank you for being so fun and violent.
Still remember us arguing on the first day we met? HAHA!
Love you too sister!

DAVINNA

Ohhh DAAAAA-VINAAAAAAA~
Thank you for always being so true in your opinions, really made me think a lot.
Hope I have become a better person!
Thanks for encouraging me always too girl~
Love you!

MARCUS

Hey buddy! I realized we never take any photo together :(
Thank God for this brother of mine, always being there even in the wee-hours.
Thank God for all the good/bad times we shared in B32 working together, doing crazy staffs.
Let's continue to work hard alright?!
Love you too buddy!

JOLENE

Thank God for this Jo's family.
It has truly been a blessing to know you and your family.
Thank God for your papa too- he kind of changed the way I view things too.
Still remember those times we were in bible study class, dozing off. HAHA.
And those times when we were with Johnathan, AhBoon, Janice & Zhong Ren? HAHA.
Love you too sister!

MY FAMILY!

I don't really show it, but I really thank God for you two!
Imagine how lonely I will be without you two bickering with me.
Also thank God for a Dad that never gave up.
LOVE YOU ALL TOO! <3

FLAME AWARD!

CERTIFICATE!

So proud to receive this award, really thank God.
Also, my Merit Award too~

Ok, there is so many things we can thank God for, and my list goes on!
And there is so many thing little things we can give-thanks for.

Problem is...do we dare to make people feel appreciated?
Having said this, the fear is that the appreciation is not reciprocated.
Some name it pride while other name it fear.
Whatever it is, let make every effort to make people feel appreciated.
Yes, many things may have happened here and there...
But learning to overlook things is also part of maturing, right?
I am trying very hard too...

Of course, talk is cheap.
Show your appreciation through your actions, not just words.

We are all kings of life.

16 NOV 2012

16 November was a really important day for me. This is because I am going to receive an award which I really wanted since I join GEnRe- this award was also my motivation on why I persevere so long in GEnRe and also work so hard academically. At first, I was told that I didn't meet one of the requirements to get the award- which is a GPA of 3.5. I was really sad because my current GPA is 3.47- which is quite unacceptable. I even complained to Irene about how depressed I was upon hearing that I didn't meet the requirements. But then, my IG adviser nominated me up- I was flying! Damn happy.

So...what really happened on the 16 November 2012?

I went to school happily with my club t-shirt and my attire for Flames Award, which is the name of the event. I brought breakfast from E-canteen and drank some milk. Later on, I feel damn uncomfortable i my stomach- so I thought its because I had a heavy breakfast and so, I only ate honeydew for lunch. And after lunch, hell came in. I cannot concentrate in class, cannot sit still and I had sudden fever. There was also this sudden bloated-ness in my stomach. Ariel brought some panadol for me but I didn't consume them- too stubborn. Then I tired to vomit things out at first but fail. Awhile later, I tried again. Everything came out. 

This is the first time I vomited so violently. It's as though my body is rejected all the food I eat. It feels as though my body even wanted to vomit out my stomach- whole body was just numb for the feel seconds. It felt terrible because I was feeling so restless and weak. And on top of that, I didn't want to go home just yet. But I really thank God for understand teacher and team-mates.

Having mention all this, you should have guessed that I am in no good condition to attend the award ceremony. And so, I skipped it in order to go home. I was really down! Because I have been waiting for this special day. Depressed beyond words. On top of that, I was suppose to perform also- so I SMS my seniors and told them about it. I guess they are really disappointed. What really sucks was when my IG adviser didn't even reply my SMS and email- guessed she was also disappointed for my sudden absence. I think I let some of my members down also- we had a colour code black and wanted to take a "family photo" on this day, but I went missing in action. Quite screwed up right?

Anyways, I left school via cab with Terence. Good thing I waited for him- because the taxi ride was so long! And I really "buay tong" already- was just half-awake through the ride. Even if the taxi uncle scam me I also don't know. I forget why I said sorry to him on the cab but really thank God for this brother, at least for tolerating my bad mood. Anyways, I think my body reacts to circumstance really fast, told Terence I will be fine taking the lift up myself. So I get him to leave. Took the lift up and before I knew it, I vomit again outside my house. This time, it's brown liquid. I assume its the acid from my stomach. It's probably one of the worse days being alive till now.

And so, I cleared up the mess I made and bathed, then slept.

I was just kind of reflecting how my Mum would take care of me when I am sick.

And also reflecting on how I told myself to be strong and independent.

A brave front yet a weak heart.

That's life huh?
Enjoy this song by Mark Chao, the lyrics not bad.
The music at first by plucking the guitar is also very nice.

Just asking for a momentary splendor.

FEELINGS

I realized I am quite "far away" from the people of God- church. Didn't attend service for 2 weeks already. And recently, my phone died on me, hence no SMS from pastor daily also. On top if that, there is this event that I am planning for with MKFC. Honestly speaking, I don't even think they need my help- I am just there because I used to be there for previous carnivals, at least this is how I think. Quite screwed up for a person who is in the youth leadership huh?

I seriously think there is something wrong with me.

#hownowbrowncow

Anyways, I am currently trying to learn this song!

The lyrics of this song is really meaningful- at least to me.

Recently, everyone that is close to me are into relationships.

I am pretty sure I don't want to be in any relationship now..but sometimes, I also feel lonely.

Looking for a best friend who can always be there for me when I need it.

Below got this video on this guy playing the song!

I hope to be able to play this meaningful song and sing it.

EOM- THE WHITE GANG

I am making new friends again.

But that doesn't mean I'll forget about my other friends.

But on the other hand, will they forget about those good times we shared?

Because I never intended to be a "HI-BYE" friend.

A BUSY WEEK AHEAD!

I am depressed because I know where I am right now, is not where I should/ want to be.

BONDS.

Say hello to the kids that I am tutoring at MKFC!

This week is their exams and I really hope they will pass their exams.

If not, what for I commit every Monday of my time to go down and tutor them right?

ELYN. ME. ZHENG ZHONG.

ELYN. ME. ZHENG ZHONG. GORDAN.

Kind of miss those times that I get to see them everyday at my work place.

But they are still lively and annoying as ever.
Hopefully, they will like the carnival that the committee is planning right now! 

<3

This photo really made my day with my friend show it to me.

At least I got something happy to remember during my really down times.

So does that mean when I am unhappy, I just need to look at pictures and think of people that are dear to me? Hmmm, probably. At the very least, I kind of smiled.

A lot of things have changed ever since this I went for this trip.
If this trip didn't take place, will things still be how it used to be?
Was telling a friend that it is important that we don't make a friend do what you think is the best for them.
Because ultimately, it's their life.
In the midst of everything, be that pillar of support for them. Backing them up always.
That...is good enough, no?

No matter how much change you see, at the end of the day, we are all the same.
Stubborn and always wanting more.
That's why things are so complicated, because we don't know how to deal with the "change".

Sometimes, it's as simple as adding 1+1, why complicate it?