A PART OR APART.

Guess what happen on the 27th of January? My PSM class went to the botanical garden!

It was really fun to hang out with them outdoors, with plants and flowers.

It really did seemed as though it was our last week together.

The same feeling of not wanting to change class...because we all know we might not meet up again...

Now I have to agree that 'Change is the only constant'...

ELFIN'S I-POD BUT IT'S ME?!

ME. DAVINNA.

MY INDIAN FRIEND VAHEENI!!!!!!!! :)
BANG BANG!

MICHELLE. ISABELLE.

ME.
I KNOW THIS PHOTO QUITE FAIL.

GREG. ME. YUELEI. HUIWEN.

ME. GREG. :)

MR HARIS. ME.

VAHEENI. HUIWEN. YUELEI.
Any idea what are they looking at?
Hmmmm...

PAINT YOUR FUTURE AT RP!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

ME. MICHELLE.

YUE LEI. ME.

ME. GREG.

YUE LEI. HUI WEN.

JUMP SHOT!
VAHEENI. AISAH. ME. MICHELLE. ISABELLA.

HEARTY GIRSL?!
YUE LEI. ISABELLE. HUIWEN. DAVINNA.

THE WHITES!
MICHELLE. FATIN. ME. VAHEENI.

THERESA. JULIET. YUELEI.

ELFIN. ME.

ME. JULIET.

THERESA. ME.

ME. THERESA.

ME. AISAH.

YUE LEI. ME.

HUIWEN. YUELEI. ME.

DA-VINNNA. HUIWEN.

DA-VINNNA. HUIWEN.

DA-VINNNA. HUIWEN. THERESA.

ME. YUE LEI. DAVINNA.

ME. DAVINNA.

VERNIQUE. DAVINNA. HUIWEN. YUELEI. THERESA. ISABELLA. ELFIN

FREDA. ME.

HAHAHAHAHA~
THANKS TO FREDA'S SPECS, I TOOK A PHOTO BEFORE GOING TO SCHOOL!
SLEEP FACE...

SQRT(MY PMS CLASS

MOVIE!!

I really thank them for this 14 weeks. I know I am not a easy person to work with; especially knowing myself. Demanding. Annoying. Ego? Weird. Funny? Whatever you can think of, I think they tolerated? I don't really know how they truly feel about me; if there is really any things that I should not know, I would rather those words remain unspoken because at least I will remember this class for a good cause? I hope when next time, we look back and see all these photos, it would be one that is of meaning. And hopefully, because of this 'feeling' we would make time for each other to meet up?

Yeah...I might not be good at 'displaying' my feelings, but honestly being sentimental has always been a part of me. To feel this way is, is beyond my control, but to not feel this way...I think all I can do is to try to meet up once in awhile? My meh-meh friend told me that I should 'make friends vigorously'. I hope I managed to do so this semester. Somewhere inside is still scare...of what that has happen in secondary school.

TDY! :)

Moving on, my life is going to change tremendously? I am now a so-called cell group leader together with Debbie and with Ben as our adviser? Honestly speaking, at where I stand right now, I cannot do it. After meeting today, I realized what it truly means when the Bible says you cannot serve two master. How am I going to juggle with church and work? I mean both are important to me; but how am I going to prioritize them? To add on, my spiritual condition is not at all at anywhere that gives me confidence to lead. What's more? I am not close to Ben at all. There is just no common topic for us- we are just too different I think? Maybe I should talk to Pastor about this during my 1 week break? Ok, I really don't know..I guess I am also feeling inferior; scare? Because I was and still am a community kid after all, right?

Talk about reaching out to friends. I have been trying but I always see no results. I even ever ask this friend of mine if God really did existed and is really right there during the end-of-time; given a choice would you believe? Even with this 'what-if' question she already said no. As much as I want to save them, I am powerless to do so. I do not blame them but I will live with guilt knowing IF I have gone the extra mile, they might be in heaven. Having said this, I regretted that I wasn't a believer at that point of time to bring her to the saving knowledge of Christ. Nonetheless, I will do what I can.

With everything on my mind now, I feel pretty mess-uped. Not knowing what lies ahead of me. Uncertainties are always the root of all problems; at least for me it is. I still remember teaching those children in my small group during MKC that ‘prayer + faith = outcome’. I hope I will be able to put it into practice.

Till my break, my focus would be to revise as much work as I can; so that I can achieve my goals of maintaining my GPA. Also, work-out a little more- no pain no gain right? (Received the deferment letter from NS!) The rest? It can wait...

TIME & AGAIN.

Finally had the time to blog~

At this point in time, I realized that what my teacher said in secondary school was so true. It goes something like 'time pass very fast, once you miss it, it's gone...' When I was still in secondary school, time seemed to past so slow in long and boring lessons. And whatever my teacher says just seemed too not applicable I would say? Now if you ask me, I think the definition of time have officially change for me. I always do not have enough time; just think about the travelling to school alone- how much time have I wasted? Sigh...I think I really need better time management between juggling study, work, IG, church, myself, and my family.

Anyways, I found these photo which I didn't upload during Jaslyn's birthday. Below is the present that I buy for her from PreciousThoughts. I'm not sure whether she would use it but it is the thought that counts right? Haha, anyways, I also forget to mention that Tammy went there with me! And I was really glad she made some friends there instead of worrying that she have no one to talk to because she knew no one there. Happy for her! :)

MY PRESENT~

DEAR TAMMY

BROTHER DILLON <3

CHURCH

Moving on, I also when to Labrador Park some weeks ago. Hmmm, come to think of it, I did receive an SMS by this 'special' person inviting me to this event and I replied it. Guess what? It was actually the church's number. Haha! But I thought the agenda of this short catch-up session was good. Although it rained, I enjoyed myself. Hopefully, ThirDaYouth in 2012, would be able to grow not just physically but also spiritually as well.

DEREK. JIM. MARCUS. ELEAZAR. ME. EUGENE.

ME & BUDDY! <3

This is my buddy. Haha, we first started off as accountability partners texting each other almost everyday!! And through SMS-ing, I give almost everyone in church nicknames- KKB, JJB, KKS, ESE, MSM. It rather funny how we came to know each other; it was via my sister. Anyways, I thank God for him because he is always there for me when I needed him and giving me advice. Not forgetting the amount of time we spent together working in Blk32 with the kids. Ahhhh, miss those times. We are still texting each other, but not as often because of our school and staffs; nonetheless, whatever the problem is, Marcus, I am here for you! :)

ME. DEREK -____-

TEAM 2~
ISA. EDWARD. DEREK.

THE YOUTH CG.

THE TEENS CG.

Anyways, recently, Pastor told me that I would be sort of 'promoted'? I am not sure how this thing goes but I am suppose to take up the role of a leader; something on the line. Of course, there is a lot of questions left unasked, unquestioned but I am going to test God! Time will tell everything.

INTEREST GROUP

Haha, next would be my IG- GEnRe! Nothing much really happened. But I am happy with the progress of the new piece Grand Solo and it sounds like pirate song~ I like. Anyways, Isa is back into the bass section. I also hope Nisa would also come back as well. Things were so much livelier last time when everyone was there. Oh well, other than that, I am rushing through the report for our concert Genvagaza 2012. I hope everything would go smoothly without any hiccups from our adviser; whom I was told is irritating and annoying. Other than that I would need inspirations to do the poster! Meanwhile, I hope the concert would be a success and our hard work would pull off! :)

I still remember coming into RP telling myself I want to become a sportsmen; but I cancelled out floorball because I didn't really get along with my team-mates. Ok, I want to be honest, because I don't like it when I do not understand anything they say in MALAY. Oh well, because I am a Chinese. Ok can. So I went for badminton trials and fail. How motivating. Finally I landed myself in Tchoukball. I went with WenFung and we went there and realized boys' training is on the next day. Sigh, so not my day that time. Nonetheless, I still attended the boys' training for one time and then I do not know why I choose GEnRe over Tchoukball! HAHAHAHAHAHA. Now I am like running to keep myself fit. Hopefully, I would not die in NS.

CHEESE-CAKE!

This is a actually the birthday cake for our conductor, Alex! Baked by HuiYi. The cake is damn good, no joke. I think she can open bakery shop and earn a living from there. Hahahahaha! :)

WORK

Next up, KRR! Time really flies huh? It is almost a 3/4 of year I am working there. If you ask me, I think I would miss working there if I quit. Talking about quitting, AhSheng quit already. He is one of the good friends I can talk to when I need help in KRR. So sad he left but on the bright side he have got a better paying job now at some hotel. Wish him and his girlfriend a bright future ahead! :)

Also, after the next semester starts, Reiko, Cynthia, Irene & XueYi would have quit. I wonder what would be left of KRR?! SUPER LACK OF MANPOWER. Hmmm, I might consider quitting as well. This would mean more time to do other things. But I think I might quit after I do my resume? At least I can get KRR to write something good for me in my resume. Oh well, just saying..

ME. GREEN MONSTER.

Ain't this green monster cute?! Even my MissOng, my outlet manager wants to take photo with it! 

Thanks Reiko for that shot! :)

Oh, that is me when I am working. Like a young boy with cap and apron.

Alright, moving on...

ANNOYING BOT!

There is this annoying bot in MSN. It is freaking annoying because it was sexually harassing me during lessons! I was ever more stupid enough to reply it -.-

Anyways, thank Greg for telling me it is a bot and solving the problem.

CHINESE NEW YEAR!

This year wasn't really as good as previous years where more people came to my house. Hmmm, I think it is because of everything that has happen to my family? Knowing that I would not receive a lot of ANGBAO this year, I gave my manager my schedule to work on the first day of CNY. But I did not regret working! Considering the amount of people I have met and work with for that day. It made me conclude that KKR Suntec branch people are more friendly and united.

Anyways, back to the topic on CNY. This year's dinner wasn't that good because my Auntie was lazy to cook. Nevertheless, those nice dishes still remain. Really miss my Ahma's cooking...

If only I was more mature that time...then I would know what it means to appreciate.

Anyways, I photo-shopped these photos. Pardon my photo-shopping skills. I was just testing things out so that I can do my IG's concert poster. 

FU!

ORANGE.

RICE.

BAH KU TEH.

PRAWNS.

CURRY.

GINGER STEAM FISH.

MY FAVORITE BROCCOLI!

KRR MUFFINS.

During dinner, I received an SMS from Mum. I am really glad I received the SMS; at least I know she is still fine in Thailand. Well, the SMS left me tearing as usual. I hope she is doing fine. Really. I only pray hard that she is in good health and that I would be able to go visit her one day and at least be a good son once. I really miss those times when there is someone telling me to do things, someone waking me up for school, someone punishing me, someone cooking my favourite Thai-TomYam Soup and Bitter-Veggie Soup which I hate, someone wanting me to message for her, someone cooking taking care of me when I am falling and the list can just go on and on...It sucks to be too independent; having to do things by yourself. Not forgetting I have to be a role model for my siblings; taking care of them when my Dad works. See how time flies? I haven't seen her for almost 7 years and I have grown up now. Although I hate her, I love her too. A chance to change everything was all I wished for...as a child.

Thanks for all the AngBao(s)!

BREEZER

Haha, of course, I cannot stay in the room crying right? My younger brother brought this, so I drank half of it in one shot? And come to think of it, there is still one more can of beer in the fridge. I am only drinking it because it is CNY. Alright, my brother and sister both went visiting but I decided to stay at home. But guess what? The money I have collect is more than them~ Winner! :)

In the midst of celebrations, there is a need to go to school. Sigh, spoils the mood. I could have rested for the whole day! Anyways, having to go back to school is already a drag, not to mention it is HTM. And also, I have been late! Shall stop this pattern from occurring too often, I need my grades to maintain my GPA, right? And I will need to study for UT3, got this feeling that my GPA confirm going to drop..! 

Anyways, food for thought is always the pull factor!

FOOD!

I was craving for the fries because it reminds me of how my Mum would any'o'how fries something new and experiment on me. Hahahahaha! And my maid too! Can you believe she cooked TOMATO KWAY TEOW? Imagine me eating it. Ok, it is all of the past. Anyways, I lunched with YueLei, HuiWen and Davinna. We are like some hungry ghost! And I realized that my tolerance for spiciness have very much 'de-proved' after trying the ma-la stall's soup. Nonetheless, thanks for the accompany! :)

Wow! I cannot believe I made such a long post.

I realized the we all miss out little things that is happening around us. It may seem small for that moment but after losing that thing, it may seem quite big and significant. Then again, we all tend to forget these minor details because we thought it will always be there. Life is too short to leave things leave unsaid, do things that are not impossible- It is a matter of whether I want to or not.

Shall end with this quote...

'Life is not about milestones; but it is about moments.'

Do not to take things for granted, because you have already lost too much.