My END OF 2011.

Yet another blog post~ How’s holidays so far? For me, it is still not too shabby. Haven’t really been blogging because I am really busy. But guess what? Holidays is over and tomorrow it gonna be back to school, books, teachers, friends...and RJ for me. Hahahahaha! 


For me this is how I spend me second week of holiday...

Youth Camp

Firstly, I think I will start with youth camp! This youth camp is kind of special for me because I’ve found the confidence in believing that God is always there for me; all I need to do is to look out for him. Of course, not to mention the speaker for the camp is really good! No doubts that he has been in the youth ministry for 20 years; because he is really good at catering to us; the youths. Just a glance through his slides presentation, it’s speaks volumes of his experiences being in the youth ministry. I was also touched by God when he released the word of prophecy to the boys; right at the moment he shared it, I knew it was me because there was this stirring in my heart and I broke down. He also came to pray for me; what’s amazing is that I didn’t even see him before and he knows where I am standing with God; I believe it has to be a divine arrangement. What really blew me away was this sentence he made while praying for me. He said, ‘Do not let the godly-man inside of you fade…’ and I’ve got the answer I was looking for all this time.  God is good. 

Of course, this camp is also a relaxing camp. The games planned were fun and engaging; especially the RUNNING MAN and not to mention, the eggs! On top of that, the BBQ wasn’t that bad too- because we BBQ-ed a turkey weighing 7.5kg if I am not wrong; it is definitely one of the ‘wow’ factor of this camp. Well, I was pretty much ministered and I have found myself renewed in the presence of God. I am sure I wasn’t the only one; overall good job planning committee~ 

CHANGI FERRY POINT!

(Y)

OUR ROASTED TURKEY!

MY GROUP!
DEREK ELEAZAR
MISSING: LUKE, JOHN

JIEJIE DIANE & RACHAEL! 

AIQI. DEBBIE. DOROTHEA. BRENT.

ISA! ABANGGGG~

DEBBIE. BEN. DIANE.

EDWARD THE BAD WOLF.

DEREK THE WOLF DEFENDER. 

ISA & THE ONE OF THE 10 COMMANDMENTS.

WILD BOAR!

UGLY UGLY UGLY!

HMMMM....

FACIAL -.-
ME. IKE.

THROWING SUPER RING.

HAHAHAHAHA. DOROTHEA & JOANNE.

Ohhh, whoever's idea was this, I thought it was a great way to end the camp off! By having this game. Kudos if you 'volunteered' your face for facial~ 

WORSHIPING ~

NIGHT SESSION.

CLEMENT THE GUITARIST!

LOG-CAKE! THANKS AUNTIE PAULINE.

THIRDAYOUTH SHIRT.

TDY! <3

Thanks for all your hard work in the planning; Joanne, Marcus, Clement, Yanling, Philip, Becky, Ben and Pastor.  Oh, God thanks for the really fine weather and everyone who made time for it! <3

Credit Derek for these photos.

*I realized that Pastor wasn't really in any photos. Hmmmm....

Time really does fly. I was only Primary6 when I join ZLSCC. Now? I'm in poly! I did see some changes in me; well at least physically I grew .___. HAHAHAHAHA! I will still be living, loving, praying for God and to God.


KRR

Secondly, back to work. Guess what? This is my first time spending Christmas working. I guess I have to get use to this feeling of not being able to celebrate different special occasions? I kind of regretted working after knowing that there is a harvest event in church; but I gave my schedule so no choice. But I really thank God that there wasn’t a lot of people coming to Kenny Roger to dine in itself; but instead we had lots of take away and advance orders. So being a waiter itself, I wasn’t busy at all.

NEW BADGE.

NEW UNIFORM.

Other than that, we all got new name tags; as well as new names? I have a friend called Reiko who decided to give me a new name, Mohammad Edward- something like that. But guess what? Cynthia and I gave a nicer name! Siti Bte Reiko Najib (HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!). Irene git herself Irene D/O Vasamtham. Cynthia; I forgot. But whatever it is, this is one of the most memorable time where I worked together with the KRR team. God bless them all~

BBQ

Thirdly would definitely be the GenRE BBQ! It was held at ZhiYing’s house. Honestly, I thought this BBQ is quite a failure at first because ‘there wasn’t enough food’. But after thinking, everyone enjoyed didn’t they? It is really about food? Or the company you get? Anyways, it doesn’t matter because we all had fun! Oh, I have a confession to make; the games that you all played that day? It was all a last minute thing; I didn’t like ‘planned’ it. HAHAHAHAHA! But, I think they was enjoying themselves?

WE. THE WHITE PPL!
FARID. HUIYI. AMELIA. WENDY. ME.

MY GUITAR CLIQUE!

GENREans! :)

I didn't regret joining this IG. In fact, I thank God for all the new people I have met; they are all so fun and always trying very hard to perfect their playing skills. Looks like I have a long way to go.

MUST. NOT. GIVE. UP.

'CLASS BONDING'

Lastly, would be the supposedly class outing. How should I put it? It was a failure ‘class’ outing because only Greg, Deshawn, Sherye, Fatin, Elfin and Weiling came. But guess what? We still had fun roller blading (not the falling down part).

This is how the event went

1. We were supposed to meet at 1; but we were all late; including me.
2. I reached at 2; but I am the first to reach although I am 1 hour late.
3. I had a lonely lunch at MacDonalds.
4. Greg & Sherye came.
5. We went to the beach and walk for a while; enjoying the sea-breeze; see some crabs.
6. Fatin and Elfin came; followed by Deshawn.
7. We decided to rent roller blades.
8. WeiLing came!
9. We decided to dinner at Parkway.
10. Went to Banquet.
11. Dear Greg keeps swearing because of the food.
12. Went to eat dessert; grass jelly.
13. Went to walk around I12 KATONG.
14. Home sweet home.

Thank God again for the perfect weather. Thanks to those that made the effort to come! <3

WeiLing!

Elfin & Greg

SHERYE. ME. FATIN.

DESHAWN.

We roller-bladed.

SHERYE. ELFIN. GREG.

We all fall sometimes. During that day, I think also all of them fell hard to the ground, but still they got back up and retry blading. I think that should be the spirit! Because falling is a process we all have to go through; be it falling physically, emotionally or spiritually, this process helps us to grow and make us who we are. This is something I have learn in 2011.

Not forgetting W24H CLIQUE <3 We had a mini-catch up dinner to celebrate Christmas. Had a great time with them! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

TABLE SETTING.

<3

Shall end this post with all some of the Christmas presents I received. 

Thanks for all the present~

TIDBITS ~

BOOK .___.

MORE THAN WORDS.

CHOCOLATES!

THANKS GIRLS! <3 #RAINBOW CUPCAKES.

THIS IS HOW IT LOOKS LIKE.

WRIST-BANDS.

SHIT?!

Thanks for all the presents!
HAHAHAHA, didn't post all the presents because I was too lazy.
Anyways; thank God for 2011 again~

ME- 2011

ME- 2012
HAVE DECIDED TO CUT MY HAIR SHORT.

2011 has ended. 2012 is here. What have I done in 2011? This, I don't really care. Because I shall look forward. Yups, and I am going to try taking up the challenge Uncle Johnathan gave to the church; making impossible dreams. 


Hmmmm, but I haven really thought of it but I want a change. The past I cannot change; but the present and the future can still be changed. I believe; therefore I can. Some people fear change because they don't know what would happen to them in the near future; this is where faith comes in. I choose to believe God has the best plan for me and my life; the choice is always there; it is whether you take it or leave it.

For now, shall live life to the fullest. 

HAPPY NEW YEAR~

Till then...

Digging things out.

Finally it is holidays. I got to do what I’ve always wanted to; sleep longer. Nonetheless, knowing myself, I did balance my time out.

I did my quiet time this morning. Honestly, if you asked me if I do my quiet time nowadays? I would sincerely answer no. But, I am still glad I managed to do it! I read on Philippians 4:6-7. Anyway, I felt more assured that God is watching over me, my life and everything; despite whatever that has happen or is going to happen, I shouldn’t lose faith, although I very much cannot decipher why must I go through this pain and everything. It says not to be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Jesus Christ. I felt encouraged.

Guess what? I also spring clean-ed my room and tidy up most of the things. Feel so proud of myself; because it was really messy (thanks to my sister). In the midst of clearing unless things, I found many interesting stuffs; I really brings back memories.

BMSS EXERCISE BOOK.

 This book is where I will do all my Mathematics practice questions. I remember I never fail to not fail this subject since primary school. But ironically, I loved this subject. Weird? How I missed those days doing Maths practice questions. Looks like we all have those moments right?

MY CHAIRMAN BADGE!

This really caught me by surprise. I thought I lost it. There is lots of memories behind this badge; good and bad. But now, it doesn't really matter now because what is done is done. I do regret. Really. I miss those moments my ex-clique laugh together; make funny jokes and all. Time have changed huh? For some reasons, it didn't work out. I have never really told anyone about it; but I am jealous sometimes to see their outing photos nowadays; but without me. Oh well.

FLOORBALL!

The red one is mine; the orange is my little sister's. This is also one of my regrets. If I know things turned out this bad; I would have attended training instead of spending time with my ex-clique. My sister told me that my coach told her that I was once a star player; I didn't believe it but it really felt good because at least I know Coach Sara still remembers me. I wonder how many things would change if time turns backs. Would I be in GenRE? Maybe; maybe not.

NO WARNING~

SEE? I AM NOT WORTHLESS.

DON BOTHER INSULTING.

 This three badge was on my secondary school pencil case. It is quite unique isn't it? Especially the second one; always remember that no one is useless. Not matter how bad because you can be served as a bad example. How motivating right?

E FOR EDWARD!

 Guess what is this?! This is a key-chain. So what's so special about it? I MADE IT MYSELF~ It brings back lots of memories again. Those times in the D&T room; with Lowell, YiHui and all. Times we did our journal overnight at  CafeInAction. Not forgetting Miss Leong! Thanks to her, I got B for my 'O' level D&T. I don't mind doing it all over again.

HEARTS.

These hearts are made up of straws. I still remember during Sec1, our class was involve in the HappyToilet Project. My class folded lots of hearts to decorate the mirrors. I still remember doing a graffiti on the wall; funny how MrChong reacted to the graffiti- in state of panic because he thinks its vandalism.

ESTHER.

Who is Esther? She is my childhood friend; her mother knows my mother so that's how we knew each other? She is a very nice girl; always putting other first before herself. She gave me this for birthday present. She did this herself! So impressive right? Hopefully her dream to become a vet can come true. All the best~

Christmas Present

 If I am not wrong, this is a Christmas gift by Becky last time? Anyways, I thought this was one of the most creative present I receive. Very nice.

SMILE

 This doll is from DAISO~ I have no idea why I buy it but I guess it's because I want to remind myself to always by true to myself? A friend always use this sentence on me: 'Stop lying to yourself.'

MY GUITAR~

Since I am in GenRE; might as well do everything to best? At least I will leave behind something, not of regrets. I want to amend lots of things but I cannot. So I can only make sure I do not make anymore mistakes.

WANG~(ONG)

XOXO.

These shirts are from Wendy! Thanks a lot~

OPPS...

OPPPS...

In the process of cleaning, I got bored. So I took a few pictures but only put this one up. The second picture was taken when I was bored in the TRCC storeroom; so I used Irene's IPhone to snap at shot. Like I said, I like photos; because there is always secrets behind it; just like magic; it holds time for that instance.

The holidays is just beginning, I still want to do lots of stuffs. At least I know one of my TO-DO-LIST is done. My room is neat now~ Thank God!

太多话哽在我胸怀, 如果时间倒转, 我会坦白.

HOLIDAYS!

It is finally holidays; after 10 continuous week of study, I can finally 'rest'! Nonetheless, I am still very busy. I am going to work my festive season off at KRR; go for youth camp; go for GenRE practise and the GenRE BBQ; and the roller blading event for my current class. Maybe, I might consider doing some revision for some of the modules?
 Talking about modules; this is my UT1 grades!

FINANCIAL ACCOUNTING- A
PROJECT MANAGEMENT- B
MARKETING- A
BUSINESS STATS- A
HOSPITALITY & TOURISM MANAGEMENT- C

Thank God for this grades! Anyways, I was rather disappointed in getting a 'C' for HTM. Is it just me or is the facilitator not teaching good enough? I wonder. Anyways, hopefully I would be able to maintain these grades for UT2 and UT3. Shall work hard!

And so, this is how I celebrated my last day of school!

MISSION IMPOSSIBLE- GHOST PROTOCOL
AT THE CATHAY (CWP)

I didn't regret watching this movie. I do recommend you all to watch because it is really worth-while. Guess who I went to watch this movie with?

ME. YUE LEI. HUI WEN. GREG. DAVINNA.

I like this picture; I also don't know why. Initially, there is only me, Huiwen and Davinna watching the movie, unexpectedly, Greg and YueLei joined us (Y). The movie experience was weird; Davinna was sitting beside me and was exclaiming all the way. Maybe the sound effect scare her or something? But one thing is for sure, she got the contiguous laughter. Greg was also sitting next to me; he really got the boy-boy look! He was sucking his thumb while watching the show. Quite cute? But he very quiet; as usual. So, just imagine me in the middle- one side is 'hot', the other side is 'cold'.

And then we headed home after the movie.

I shall enjoy my 2-weeks break! :)

Thoughts.

Hey, look whose blogging again? Me. Shall make it a short one.

Everyone has thoughts right? Some should be shared while some shouldn't even be spoken of. Then today, I asked myself this question. If I want to share my thoughts, who can I share it with? I think for very long. And I realized, I don't really have anyone to share with. Corrections; I don't have anyone I am comfortable with to share with. Where are all the important people that is suppose to be in my life? Why are they not with me?

I have to admit; I always put up a strong front- sometimes slightly negative. What can I do? Nothing but to express it like that- with a sad face. I know that God would never fail me; but at the same time I cannot helped it but to feel negative. You know that feeling? When something big happens and you cannot sleep? And the only thing you can do is to think of that sickening problem; trying to solve it but nothing happens. It's frustrating, no doubt about it.

Anyways this tweet encouraged me. 'Look at the prize, not the price'- this I thought was quite true.

L.I.F.E.

How's life? For me, a lot of things have happen- good and bad. And guess what? I am still surviving.

The worksheet~

Last week, the was two field trips. One to Sentosa, another to Orhcard. This makes me conclude that learning out-of-class sucks. Because it is not conducive enough, and makes it hard to actually finish the task given. Ok, maybe because for both the trips, it rained quite heavily. Either way, I still did enjoy because I actually got to know my classmates better. Alright, as usual I let the photos talk...

ME. VAHEENI.

 Vaheeni is really a nice person. I have always play racist jokes on her but guess what? She don't really mind. I think what makes her funny is her smile? She got the natural look that makes people laugh, I guess?

VAHEENI. ARIEL. MICHELLE.

ELFIN. ME.

 That is Elfin. She is a tennis-player! I don't really know her well but I find her really open- not in a bad way. I guess the correct word to use to sociable? Hmmm....

THERESA. JULIET.

 And here is Theresa and Juliet- smiling so brightly. I know Theresa since GenRE camp. She is really kind-hearted and always willing to help in class. Next to her is Juliet- I didn;t really have good impression of her at first. But through Theresa, I got to know her better. She is actually no difference for other girls; although she tend to be quite fierce often a times. Glad to know both of them are believers of God.

OUR FIRST CLASS PHOTO.

And there we go; we took our first official class photo I think? And the photographer is Greg. He didn't really want to be in the photo so he volunteered. I feel happy just because we took this photo- because in the near future, this is a prove that we were, at least, once class-mates.

Didn't I mention we went to Sentosa? In Sentosa, we have our HTM module where I was teamed up with a all boys group. I am actually the youngest among them. But guess what? There is still a kid in each of them; after spending a day with them; although there is a difference in our age, it kind of meant nothing.

GREG. ME.

 This is our first stop. I think Brandon took this photo (because he camera shy). The SAND BAR. Oh, if you are wondering where id our other two team-mates; they went smoking and we kind of 'lost' each other. Some kind of joke right? But they managed to contact us still; via the girls.

GREG. BRANDON.

 Next up, the Siloso beach. I forced Brandon to take photo. Oh well at least he smiled, right?

GREG. ME. BRANDON.

 If I remembered, Greg approached this Indian to help us take this photo. He wanted a group photo. Credits to the Indian that helped take this picture.

ME. GREG.

 We were finally going to meet up the lost sheeps. We went to Mc' Donalds to get ice-cream cone. And we finished almost half of our worksheet?

BRANDON. DESHAWN. ME. GREG. HAZ.

 And finally, we came together at the Merlion. I like this picture; makes me feel like a little brother with 4 big brothers taking care of me. Ok, the only reason why I am in the middle is because I am short. Full Stop.

TIGER TOWER (Y)

 We couldn't find anyone to take photo for us! Glad I met YiJin and Medeline! They helped us take photo. Something that shock me was a comment made by one of the boys: 'They go as a class sia, not like us, split up...' Something like that...I always thought otherwise; like they like to work alone? Either way, at least I know how they think. We also go to this souvenir shop. Got this very nice thing 3D-caved-photo. Apparently, there only got lots of couple photo; so I made a comment which attracted the sales-person. I said: 'Next time, when I have girlfriend then come.' She replied me something like no need girlfriend also can. 'Ok!'- I replied this and walked out of the shop. EPIC FAIL?

DESHAWN. ME. GREG.

 We were walking to our last stop. And we saw this. I said I wanted to make sand-castle. Surprisingly, this two boys are also interested. And the above sand-castle is not ours. It was some random kid's.

OUR FINAL PHOTO.

 We were finally done with our worksheet, after so long. I like this photo the best. Credits to another group from another class.

LUNCHING.

 Finally, we wanted to lunch. We wanted to eat KFC. But Brandon is a vegetarian. So we had a hard time deciding. We in the end, we went to KFC. Poor Brandon only can eat cheese fries. But at the same time, I salute him for being so committed in his relationship; hardly can find guys like this; extinct creature? Maybe.

WHAT'S LEFT.

And finally the Sentosa trip is over! :))

HAPPY FEET 2.

We went to VIVO and watched HappyFeet 2. THERESA. HUIWEN. HAZ. DESHAWN. I was quite entertaining I guess? But I thought it was a waste to not be able to watch You are the apple of my eyes.

ISABELLE. MICHELLE. WEILING. ME.

This is my PMS group. We were in Orchard. This is the only group photo I have. Anyways, if not for the rain, I am sure everything else would have been better. Because my shoes are soaked wet that day, it kind of spoiled my mood. But nonetheless, these girls did cheered me up with their 'shopping'. Enjoyed my day.

Alright. Now for some GenRE. I was appointed as the Events Manager. Didn't really know to be happy or sad. But I am glad to have Nisa (my bass partner) with me! :)) Other than that, we are practicing hard? Got lots of scores; Canon In D, Air-on-G, RiverFlow. Oh well, I guess staying in GenRE ain't that bad after all? Hope everything goes well. Looks like there is more commitments.

With happy moments; there would sure to be sad moments. I am disappointed with someone. I really want to depend on someone; but somehow, I don't dare. Because things just don't seem to work well; at least for me. It is like trying to tell an elephant to try breaking loose from the rope after it is being tied to a tree for years; it just wouldn't work! People tend to give up; like me. It is not about whether I give chance or not; it is about whether you really wanted to change for the better. You know how much it equally hurts on the inside? I am not talking to you because I am angry; depressed. Just because I don't show it does not mean I don't care. I don't want to live in the world made up of your fabrication of lies; because it sucks- BIG TIME. I trusted you but in the end...? Oh well...life must be playing a prank on me.

I am starting to think if the main reason why I am so tired is due to the sadness.

Didn't go church this week. I was too tired...

Dear God, help me to be an over-comer. In Jesus' Name, AMEN.